Monday, March 07, 2005
*Whoosh*
Feeling so much lighter now. almost floating.
At last, the burden is off me. The issue tat has been bothering me finally has a closure to it.
I have done the best I can, and yepz. I ve nv felt so relieved since a very long time.
Even during lab just now, I cld feel myself 'floating' and was happily contributing to the psy experiment me and my partner were working on.
Well. I ve finally plucked the courage to msg Ryan and asked him a talk might do us good. After much consultation with frens, thou more wld advise against the idea, the rational me felt tat there needs to be an end. be it a good one or bad one. at least, clear some misunderstandings or assumptions?
Theoretically, there is really no need for any explanations to be done for my actions. since true frens know best. but if a talk may help, i wldnt mind.
however, his reply showed his indifference towards the whole issue.
'Do you think that will make any difference?' One question says it all.
'My blog always remains anonymous anyway'. eh, that really kindda leaves me speechless, doesnt it?
But guess he thinks / assumes / believes that I ve, once again, pushed him over his limits, and have forever 'branded' me as a person with a bad personality.
wadever.
From now on, it will nv ever bother me again.
So yeah, the conclusion was tat, we r not gonna have a talk to settle any differences.
u know, i honestly feel i ve reached a higher level oredi. the different phases one wld undergo after a heartbreak. each progressive level makes u grow stronger, and u know when u have reached tat stage.
when im not here, i wld nv say i am. even if it means i will get a scolding from a fren, i wld still not lie.
But things are a little different now. when i say it will nv bother me anymore, believe me, it WILL NOT.
Its like me getting past the denial stage.
Hey, my psy theories are actually being put to good use here ya.
Who was the theorist who came up with that different-stages-after-break-up theory? Was it Erik-Erickson or sth lydat?
i actually enjoyed myself during psy lab just now. a 1st time, i must admit
(shamefully). hahaha.
but the main reason being, the tutor was exceptionally nice. she makes that extra effort to rem everyone's names, going ard asking our names everytime she forgets. I am sure we all think she is great. and she looks gorgeous for her age too :)
yeah. so on top of the good mood i was in, the friendly tutor i got totally made my day! thou it was a hectic one, which started from 9 am till 6 pm.
i am so tired now. can feel the magnetic force pulling me towards my bed. but noooooooo. i need to do abit of stuff b4 going to renee's place for teo chew muey. yummy yummy. another plus point of the day.
:D
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